This
is from a letter of St. Catherine’s as quoted in the March 2020 edition of Magnificat. It is taken from Susan Noffke’s translation,
Volume 1, but I do not know who St. Catherine is addressing. The bold are my editorial addition to
highlight key sentences.
In the name of Jesus
Christ crucified and of gentle Mary. I
Caterina, servant and slave of the servants of Jesus Christ, am writing to you
in his precious blood. I long to see you
clothed in the garment of blazing charity…But you will say to me, “Since I have
no such love, and without it I am powerless, how can I get it?” I will tell you. Love
is had only by loving. If you want
love, you must begin by loving. Once you
want it, you must open the eye of your understanding to see where and how love
is to be found. And you will find it
within your very self. How? When you recognize your nothingness. And
once you see that of yourself you do not even exist, you will recognize and
appreciate that God is the source of your existence and of every favor above
and beyond that existence—God’s graces and gifts both temporal and spiritual. So everything we have, everything we discover
within ourselves, is indeed the gift of God’s boundless goodness and
charity.
This discovery and sight
of our Creator’s tremendous goodness to us makes us rise to such growth of love
and desire that we count as nothing ourselves and the world and all the world’s
pleasures. This doesn’t surprise me,
because this is love’s way, that when we see ourselves loved we love in
return. And because we love, we would
rather die than offend the one we love. We are fed in love’s fire because we
realize how loved we are when we see that we ourselves were the soil and the
rock that held the standard of the most holy cross. For you know very well that neither earth
nor rock could have held the cross, nor could cross or nails have held God’s
Only Begotten Son, had not love held him fast.
So God’s love for our souls was
the rock and the nails that held him fast.
There’s
an intentional circularity I think in her thought here. We exist only because of God’s love, and through
that love, love dwells in us, and that love for us is what made God sacrifice
His only son, and that sacrifice on Calvary could exist because love was in us
to love Him back. In engineering we call
this a feedback loop. God loves us, we
love God, and love magnifies, not diminishes.
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