"Love follows knowledge."
"Beauty above all beauty!"
– St. Catherine of Siena

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Ten Books That Have Stayed With You


Here’s a neat little exercise that according to Julie Davis of Happy Catholic has been going around on Facebook. 

Rules: list 10 books that have stayed with you. Don't take more than a few minutes; don't think too hard. They don't have to be great works, just the ones that have touched you, and of course with me they are great works.   Ninety percent of what I read is great works.  Now this is off the top of my head and without a lot of thought, and I reserve the right to change my impulsive mind.  I could also have gone into poetic works but I limited myself to only novels.  The author of the work is in parenthesis.
 

1. Heart of Darkness (Joseph Conrad)

2. Light In August (William Faulkner)

3. The Rainbow (D.H. Lawrence)

4. The Brothers Karamazov (Fyodor Dostoevsky)

5. Anna Karenina (Leo Tolstoy)

6. Moby Dick (Herman Melville)

7. The Great Gatsby (F. Scott Fitzgerald)

8. To The Lighthouse (Virginia Woolf)

9. Great Expectations (Charles Dickens)

10. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)

 
Are any of these on your list? 

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Personal Note: It’s Going to Be a Hard Advent - UPDATED

Tomorrow starts Advent.  As I’ve mentioned, my dog Brandi is in her last phase of life.    Let me bring you up to date since that post.  Actually let me go back a few days before that.  We brought her home from the Vet after her biopsy on Friday, November 22nd.  She ate sparingly that day and the next, but she did eat, but the on the Sunday she didn’t want anything at all.  I thought for sure it was a signal for the end.  I even sent an email out to a few friends asking for their experience. 

But then there was a minor miracle.  When we left the Vet's office with her Friday, the vet forgot to include her pain killer medication. Remember she had a biopsy and they opened up her entire belly. The medication was on the list but we didn't have any and the instructions said only if necessary. And then Sunday night it dawned on me that she was in pain. It was just the way she was walking that tipped me off. So Monday we called the vet and he looked into it and found they had left it out and didn't get into our bag. So I got on my horse and raced down to the vet hospital (it's like forty miles away) and picked it up and got back and gave her two pills and then she started moving better and interested in eating. It was like that all week.  Actually yesterday, Friday the 29th was the most promising in that she ate over a cup of leftover turkey in the morning and over a cup at night.

Today there was a turn.  She refused food all day long except just before we had our Vet visit in the afternoon.  Then she ate about a quarter cup of turkey.  And then at the Vet the doctor noticed her belly was distended.  It’s filling with fluid, which is a bad sign the liver is completely shutting down.  We were surprised that Brandi had not lost any weight when she got on the scale.  But it’s due to fluid retention.  I’m afraid she really doesn’t have much longer to go now.

I'm really looking forward to Advent. I need a change. Poor Brandi is dying and has only a few days, a week at the most, to live. I'm feeling all sorts of aches of love which is clearly a desire for Jesus. One day this week we will have to make the final decision, and it's really going to hurt. This Advent will be like no other. Except for my grandfather when I was young, I have never lost a loved one during the holidays, and his passing was rather sudden. May one day Christ come for the final time and bring all my loved ones back together in one embrace. Come Jesus, come.
Here's Brandi from earlier in the week resting comfortably at her favorite spot on the couch.  If you look carefully at her shaved belly, you'll see the stitches from the biopsy.

UPDATE, Sunday, Dec 1st, 9:45 PM

It came faster than we expected. The liver had shut down and she wasn't eating or urinating for 24 hours. When she finally urinated it was dark orange.  Then she threw up what water she drank. She was weak and having difficulty getting around.  It was time. This afternoon we put her down.  Brandi passed from this earth at around 3:45 PM.
 


Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Faith Filled Friday: George Washington’s Thanksgiving Proclamation

Umm, I know, it’s not Friday.  But I wanted this out for Thanksgiving, which is a Thursday.  I assume many of you have seen this, but I wanted to post it.  This is President George Washington’s Proclamation for a national day of Thanksgiving in the first year of our nation’s history.
 

Whereas it is the duty of all nations to acknowledge the providence of Almighty God, to obey His will, to be grateful for His benefits, and humbly to implore His protection and favor; and Whereas both Houses of Congress have, by their joint committee, requested me to "recommend to the people of the United States a day of public thanksgiving and prayer, to be observed by acknowledging with grateful hearts the many and signal favors of Almighty God, especially by affording them an opportunity peaceably to establish a form of government for their safety and happiness:"

Now, therefore, I do recommend and assign Thursday, the 26th day of November next, to be devoted by the people of these States to the service of that great and glorious Being who is the beneficent author of all the good that was, that is, or that will be; that we may then all unite in rendering unto Him our sincere and humble thanks for His kind care and protection of the people of this country previous to their becoming a nation; for the signal and manifold mercies and the favorable interpositions of His providence in the course and conclusion of the late war; for the great degree of tranquility, union, and plenty which we have since enjoyed; for the peaceable and rational manner in which we have been enable to establish constitutions of government for our safety and happiness, and particularly the national one now lately instituted for the civil and religious liberty with which we are blessed, and the means we have of acquiring and diffusing useful knowledge; and, in general, for all the great and various favors which He has been pleased to confer upon us.

And also that we may then unite in most humbly offering our prayers and supplications to the great Lord and Ruler of Nations and beseech Him to pardon our national and other transgressions; to enable us all, whether in public or private stations, to perform our several and relative duties properly and punctually; to render our National Government a blessing to all the people by constantly being a Government of wise, just, and constitutional laws, discreetly and faithfully executed and obeyed; to protect and guide all sovereigns and nations (especially such as have shown kindness to us), and to bless them with good governments, peace, and concord; to promote the knowledge and practice of true religion and virtue, and the increase of science among them and us; and, generally to grant unto all mankind such a degree of temporal prosperity as He alone knows to be best.

Given under my hand, at the city of New York, the 3d day of October, A.D. 1789.


You can’t say it better than that.  I am thankful for so many things, but especially my family and friends and all those who stop here to comment.  God bless you all.  In a small way you are all part of this blessed life that God has graciously given me.

 
 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Personal Note: Brandi’s Diagnosis

Last week I mentioned my Yellow Labrador Retriever, Brandi, underwent a biopsy on her liver because of high liver enzymes that would not get corrected with diet and treatment.  I also mentioned that while undergoing the biopsy they found nodules on her spleen and removed it.  Both the liver biopsy and the spleen were sent to the lab for testing.

The results are in and it’s not good.  “The spleen showed evidence of lymphoma.  The liver was consistent with cirrhosis (end stage liver disease)” and “due to severe chronic active hepatitis.”

This is a double whammy.  The liver disease might still be treatable since the liver is such a recoverable organ.  However, the lymphoma is a cancer that travels the entire body.  It’s highly unlikely it’s isolated in the spleen.  Brandi’s “prognosis is poor.”  The doctor thinks she has about six weeks or so. 

Among other drugs, she is getting prednisone which has stimulated her appetite.  She’s eating quite a bit, except her hepatic dog food, which she detests.  She’s also drinking quite a lot, and she needs to relieve herself every couple of hours.  She’s had a few accidents in the house, and they are large puddles.  We’ve limited her to the ground floor and Rochelle has been sleeping downstairs to try to take her out when needed. 

Brandi is so happy to be at home, sitting or lying down in her favorite spots.  She’s certainly not her energetic self, and she stays by one of us every moment.  She always had a special affection for my wife, and now she never leaves her side.  Let me leave it with an understatement, we are all pretty much broken up over this.

The veterinarian’s discharge report had the following statement: “Brandi is a sweet girl and wonderful patient.”  Yeah, that’s Brandi.  Even with the people who were probing and sticking her with needles, she was sweet and wonderful.

Here’s a picture I found of Brandi when one day my wife decided to put a cap on her head.
 
 

Friday, November 22, 2013

Faith Filled Friday: 50 Ways to Talk to God

I’ve never heard of Meg Hunter Kilmer but I was directed to her blog, Held By His Pierced Hands to read this remarkable piece on fifty ways to enhance your relationship with our Lord.  She refers to herself as a cradle Catholic and a revert and lists several theology degrees. 

She laments that almost half of Catholics in a survey responded that they “don’t believe God is a personal God.”  So she created this list of ways to enhance your personal relationship with our Lord.  Some of the ways are just stunning.  All fifty are intriguing, but here are a few of my favorites.


“1. Close your eyes and just repeat the name of Jesus.”

Wow, I know that’s incredibly simple but it just blew me right off my chair.  How easy.  One can do it in the middle of a boring meeting at work, during a commercial while watching TV, while waiting at a bus stop, sitting on an airplane waiting to take off, laying in a hammock on a summer afternoon.  Anywhere, anytime. 

“5. Pray the news. Beg mercy for sinners, healing for the infirm, justice and peace and God’s will in all things.”

I bet that creates so much less anxiety in reading the news. 

“20. When you kneel before the priest in confession, be mindful of the fact that you’re kneeling at the foot of the Cross accusing yourself before the God who hangs dying to save you. Hate your sin but let him love you just the same.”

“29. Some time when you’re not tired, lie down in the sun and try to be still with the Lord. You may drift in and out of sleep but you may also surrender your mind and actually manage silence.

“34. Pray for an image of your relationship with Christ–lovers, knight and squire, father and child, king and slave, comrades at arms–and learn through that.”

And finally for those who can’t muster more from their relationship with God:

“50. Go through the motions if it’s the best you can do. It’s better than nothing.”

Check out her blog and let me know which of the fifty are your favorites.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Notable Quote: From Dante’s Purgatorio, Canto 2

Shortly I’m going to have a series of posts on my reading of Dante’s second part of his Divine Comedy, Purgatorio.  I’m going to give you a little taste of it here, a section from the second canto, where Dante and his guide Virgil, newly arrived and standing on the shores of Purgatory see an angel coming toward them on the sea hoisting a ship of newly dead souls being transported.  The angel starts as a small speck in the distance but grows as it comes closer, getting intensely brighter.  Virgil orders Dante to drop to his knees and fold his hands.  As the angel beaches the ship, Dante hears the souls on board singing, Psalm 113, “When Israel went out of Egypt,” in Latin of course, the souls experiencing the same freedom from their earthly life as the freed slaves from pharaoh. 

 
We were still alongside the sea, like people
thinking about their path, who go with the heart
and with the body remain.
And behold, as when near the morning Mars
shines red through the heavy vapors, low in the
West, over the surface of the sea:
such appeared to me—so may I see it again!—a
light coming across the sea so rapidly that no flight
equals its motion.
After I had a little withdrawn my eye from it to
question my leader, I saw it again, grown brighter
and larger.
Then on each side of it appeared I knew not
what whiteness, and below it, little by little,
another whiteness came forth.
My master still did not say a word, while the
first white things showed themselves to be wings;
then, when he had recognized the oarsman,
he cried, “See, see that you bend your knees.
Behold the angel of God: fold your hands;
henceforth you will see such ministers.
See how he disdains all human means, so that he
needs no oars nor any sail but his wings, between
shores so distant.
See how he has them stretched toward the sky,
beating the air with his eternal feathers, that do not
change like mortal hairs.”
Then, as the divine bird came closer and closer
to us, it grew brighter, so that my eyes could not
sustain it up close,
but I lowered them; and he came to shore with a
vessel so swift and light that the waters engulfed
none of it.
At the stern stood the angelic pilot, who seemed
to have blessedness inscribed on him; and more
than a hundred spirits were sitting within.
In exitu Israel de Aegypto,” they were singing all
together with one voice, with as much of that
psalm as is written thereafter.
Then he made the sign of the holy
cross; at which they all threw themselves on the
beach; and he went away as quickly as he had
come.
                                    -ll. 10-51

I’m using the Robert M. Durling translation, Oxford University Press, 2003.

I hope you enjoyed it.  Reading Dante is such a pleasure.  I’m looking forward to my upcoming posts.
 
 

Monday, November 18, 2013

Music Tuesday: Dog and Butterfly by Heart, for My Yellow Lab, Brandi

This is a very pretty song, probably unknown to most people.  It’s by the group Heart, led by the Wilson sisters, Ann and Nancy, and the song is about looking back to the simpler time of the female narrator’s childhood.

I post this song for my dog Brandi, who today was surgically opened up for a biopsy on her liver.  Brandi’s liver enzymes for the past four months have been getting higher and higher.  A year and a half ago she had a similar liver problem and after IV at a doggy hospital and antibiotics and special diet she recovered.  It was a near death experience for her back then.  I think I blogged about it, but that was at the J’s Café blog, which is no longer available for me to provide a link.  We never did identify the cause back then, but since she recovered, we moved on, though monitoring her liver through blood tests.

This time she has not recovered from the same medication, and so we decided that we needed to do a biopsy.  When they opened up her belly, the only unusual thing they noticed was that her spleen had several nodules on it, and so they removed it.  I guess one can live without a spleen.  Otherwise the biopsy went well.  She is currently recovering.  It will take a few days before we learn the results.  Yes, the past couple of years have been expensive, but Brandi is a love and joy.  All we can do right now is pray.

Here’s this wonderful song.

 


 

Here’s Brandi and yours truly, back in 2006 when Brandi was three.  She just turned ten.

 


St. Francis of Assisi, please pray for Brandi.